Sometimes I have these strange visuals of Chase and his illness. I picture Chase holding in his hands a box that contains bipolar disorder/psychosis. The box cannot be put down. Instead Chase can learn to live his life while still holding the box. It might take a bit longer to do everyday routines or develop certain relationships while holding the box, but it can be done.
However, during my visit today I saw something totally different. I saw a life-sized bipolar box with Chase trapped inside it.
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I am surrounded by people but feel so alone in this quest to rescue my son.
I have raised 2 children to adulthood, one with Early Onset Bipolar I, with psychotic features. He is a 28, an adult. He is married, raising 3 kids. He has held the same job in commercial hardscaping for five years. Yes, he needs medication and will for the rest of his life. He sees a therapist regularly, who helps him assess his life and medication needs. It is not quick or easy, but it can be done. {{{Hugs}}}
ReplyDeleteKristen, I know it feels as if you are alone. You're not. And your visualization today is a HUGE step. I know what you mean about visualizing your son in the box. I have that visualization too. Whether he's in the box or carrying it can vary from day to day. I hope this hospitalization brings you and Chase some answers that get him closer to stability. Hang in there.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry sweetie. I wish the powers that be could figure it out and get Chase some balance and stability. I am sending you a virtual hug. <3
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