Hugs

I *think* I fixed my laptop. Knock on wood.

Things with Chase have been amazing. He is having great days at school and being a little fish when he's home, swimming every day.

Each day I see Chase maturing and being more self aware. Today Chase taught me how to make a car out of Lego's. He also taught me that hugs are the best feeling. Even when the "hugger" is soaking wet from the pool and the "hug-ee" is dry and trying to get to the store.

Laptop virus

My laptop has a virus or something so I won't really be posting until I get it fixed. All good around here. Email me if you need anything. Ravenbug88@yahoo.com

blessing

I'm not sure what to write tonight. I was at work all day so I didn't get to see Chase or Aimee. Of course now they are sleeping but I'm sure Chase will get up WAY too early so I should be seeing him in about 5 hours. Ugh....

Chase has been home for about 10 weeks. I can count on one hand the number of serious rages in those 10 weeks. What a blessing.

Father's day tears

:::Teensie update since yesterdays entry::: Chase is actually 59lbs. If anyone has any ideas to help him put on weight in a healthy way, let me know. Maybe Ensure drinks or something? He isn't weak or anything and has the same amount of energy as always.

Kevin is back and its nice to have an extra set of hands (and eyes!) As much as I might complain about him, I couldn't imagine our lives without him around.

Tomorrow is Father's Day so please bear with me. Two rough things are hitting me already. 1. My children haven't seen their father since November and will celebrate their first Father's Day without their father around. 2. Its my first Father's Day without my dad. I have spent every Father's day with my dad since I can remember.

Now that I'm all emotional about a silly Hallmark holiday, I'm going to get comfy in bed and remind myself to be thankful for the men in our lives. Uncle Kevin, Uncle Steve, Zachary and my boyfriend. Hold your dad tight tomorrow please.

skinny

I apologize for disappearing for days at a time. I had a great week with my kids and my amazing boyfriend. (Uncle Kevin went back to his hometown for the week.)

Chase had his psychiatrist appointment today and for the first time, we dragged Aimee along with us. I saw Chase in a new light today. He was really showing off his sister to the receptionist and psychiatrist and showing them that he is a good big brother. He was full of pride! Most of his issues with Aimee is normal sibling rivalry but it still makes me feel good.

No medication changes needed at this point. Still no weight gain in 2 years... 62lbs and 53inches. His ribs and chest bones are really protruding. See below. The doc is slightly concerned but all lab tests have come back negative. I think by winter if he doesnt gain more weight they will start doing a lot more testing.

Happy Birthday Aimee!

Sometimes I wonder how I ended up with such amazing children. Just watching them makes me smile. For two days in a row now, both kids have been playing peacefully TOGETHER and have such fun. I know its a period of grace but God let me have the time and patience to enjoy every minute of it. Life will have its ups and downs but the ups are the moments that help me get through all the downs. My little one is officially 4 years old today. Yay Aimee! Chase's birthday is next on July 13.

Chase at 1 day old

July 2002

Aimee at 1 day old
June 2006

Seems like forever ago when my kids were tiny little babies. Good night everyone.

A few pics

I don't really feel like posting today but wanted to share a few pics that I came across. The birthday ones are from today. Another rough evening missing my dad. He loved family fun on their dock during the summer time. He always said that is the reason they bought the house on the water. For us to have a place to come together.

Chase liked Aimee's birthday cake.

The kids had a blast swimming with their cousin Sam.

We all had fun swimming in the Delta. Aimee doesn't look happy in this picture but she was really excited to be swimming in the Delta like the "big kids."

A picture I found on my mom's camera from a while back. Our doggie Sara and Aimee.
This is a picture of my beautiful mom and I.

I hope you all have a blessed evening. Hug your loved ones tight and remember that each day together is a gift. And don't forget a good shower after swimming in the Delta....ugh.