More CPS + other stuff

CPS went to Chase's school to interview him. He talked to her a little bit but then shut down. Later, the school psychologist was able to join the interview and helped him open up. I'm still in the dark about any details, nor would I share them in here.

The latest info I have is that we can expect to have ALL visitation with Jared suspended probably until the Jan 1 or so. I'm glad that my kids will not have to be somewhere that they dont want to be. But I'm stressing because I work weekends and he usually had the kids while I worked. Ugh

On the up side, Chase and Aimee are thrilled not to be spending the weekend/holidays with their dad for a while. Sad.

We had a "Neighbor Dinner" tonight. We did the cooking at my house and then ate at Tamara's house next door. When my kids got tired we just went home. It reminds me of a dream I used to have with my best friends Lindy and Lindsay when we were kids. Buy houses right next to each other and have the kids roaming between the two houses. A real sense of community and family. And I have it all. Plus Jim next door who is helpful when I need odds and ends done around here. And he's a great cook.

Today I got an email from Sarah who is producing the independent film that Chase is involved in. Discovery Channel saw the trailer and picked it up! They will be here to film starting Nov. 30. The show will air during the first week of may for Mental Health Awareness Week.

I am so thankful for today.

CPS visit

Sometimes I think I write in lists so I have an excuse not to write complete sentences. Here are some random fragmented thoughts from today:

1. Last night Aimee didn't sleep. 11pm-3am wide awake, loud, crying, yelling, talking and not letting Chase sleep. (In other words, I'm exhausted today)

2. Kevin and Rick left this morning. They left 2 of the puppies here to keep me entertained. Boo and Cocoa. Stupid rat dogs that I love to cuddle with....

3. CPS came to the house today to discuss the allegations against Jared. Jared CANNOT have visitations until the investigation is over. Wow. I'm a little shocked but not surprised. Oh and now what do I do on the weekends while I need to work?!?!

Between my constant headaches and sleep deprivation, I'm going to bed while trying not to cry. Overwhelmed.

sad

Chase was miserable this morning. Angry and irritable and teary-eyed. He really didn't want to go to his dads. But until CPS or the court do anything, I can't deny him his weekends with them. No matter how worried I get or how sad Chase is.

zoned out

Chase was pretty out of it all day. Depressed/tired/zoned out. I believe it had something to do with his talks with the therapist yesterday regarding Jared.

I'm going to bed early. It will probably be a night of tossing and turning for me.

CPS report

1. Chase's therapist filed a CPS report on Jared. I don't know the exact contents, but it has to do with physical abuse. I'm so upset that it has come to this. Chase has enough to deal with, without being abused or watching his sister be abused. I pray it is all just an exaggeration but I doubt it.

2. Kevin is back. (Kevin is the 22yr old "brother" that is amazing with Chase.) I'm starting to think of him as the "Chase Whisperer." Chase looks up to him so much. Its great to have Kevin around so I can get a little break here and there.

3. My boyfriend met my parents. My parents like him but are concerned that he was quiet. He is pretty shy at first and was REALLY nervous to make a good impression on my dad. Now I hope that he really did like them.

I am so thankful for my friends and family. That seems to be a constant theme in our lives this year. It takes a village....