snot

Today seemed to drag on forever. Carpet cleaning took 3 hours! Thankfully I was able to get the kids over to the nanny's house about mid way through. They were going crazy sitting on the front porch. The garage was full of furniture so I wouldn't let them open it and all of the neighbor kids were in school.

I can hear Chase snoring in his bed. He's pretty congested. Tomorrow morning we are supposed to get their pictures taken. But if there is still a ton of coughing and snot, I will just reschedule.

I guess thats about all I can write before I start drifting off.............

random

Chase has a nasty cold that is slowing him down Other than that, the evening went well. Aimee went to sleep quickly.

Tomorrow I'm getting the carpets cleaned....

here i go

I finally have a minute to sit and "reflect" on the last few days. I want to puke. Is that a bad sign?

So wednesday night I think I posted that Chase raged. Nothing horrible.

Thursday morning Chase raged. Aimee and I were both victims of his anger. MRT responded to the house. Jared even came over to "save the day." Things calmed down. MRT left. Jared left (for his busy life with NO JOB.)

Later, I brought the kids over to the Nanny's house so I could get some rest before my graveyard shift. Less than an hour later, the nanny calls. Chase is raging and busted her in the face with his own head. She's bleeding.

On my way to get Chase, I called MRT. Chase was winding down when I got there but started up again soon after we got home. Aimee stayed with the nanny.

Jared came and picked up Chase just in time for me to get to work. (Did I mention he has no JOB?!?!)

I went to work with NO sleep. One of the longest shifts of my life. Got off work and before I could even get home, he calls and is ready to drop Chase off. So I couldn't sleep after work either. But again, HE HAS NO JOB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Very confused as to what he is so darned busy with.

Either way, I hadn't slept since Wednesday night.

Finally on friday night I have the opportunity to sleep. But as luck would have it, Aimee is sick and has the cold from hell. Low fever but a bad cough that is keeping her up ALL night long. She stayed in my bed and neither of us slept. No rages from Chase though.

Saturday morning (this morning) I am a mess at work. I look like hell, feel like hell and probably smell like a$$ since I couldn't even shower.

BUT guess where I am right now?!?!?!? MY BED! So as much as I say I don't sleep, me and my Ambien CR are going to give it a shot.

rages

If I don't write this now, I'll forget to update it later.

ALL day thursday was rages. Violent rages.

Rage

And so the rage began.

And it hurt.

I got hit with a shoe at full force.

He calmed down after about 15 minutes.

Not bad.

I figure that rages can be expected.

There are things that can't be 100% eliminated.

But not bad for a rage.

Phew.

bullsh*t

I hate that when I mention that my son is/was in the hospital, people seem so concerned. Then when they find out that he has a mental illness, it somehow becomes insignificant. He isn't really sick. Or when he comes home he will be all better. Or somehow when he is in the psych hospital it is less stressful than any other sort of hospitalization.

That's bullshit.


PS...Chase is still doing well. Just needed to vent.

Pics and Video

Just adding some pics from the last week. The pics of the kids in pajamas are right after showers and they decided to dance to the music on my iPod.

These two pics are from a morning last week where both kids were SO cranky and being mean to each other for hours. So we went for a drive. It was perfect (see below to understand why).

Funny video of the kids dancing.