The on-call psychiatrist, Dr. James, was amazing. She made me feel like a person. a mom. a strong woman. She kept asking about my support system and any support from Chase's dad. I broke down crying about Chase's crappy relationship with his dad. Then Jared showed up. She kept pulling me out of the room to make sure I was ok etc.
Today I had many angels.
- Dr. James was one of my angels.
- Tamara (neighbor) was another angel. She made rushed over to help with Chase and then took Aimee.
- Nanny Ann put up with so much by just doing me a favor by watching the kids so i could go sit with my dad.
- MRT workers Lindsay and Mike helped me feel better about everything.
- My daddy made me feel really important today. He talks to me. Only me. With everyone else, he just talks nonsense.
- My mom loves Chase so much and will support us in whatever hard decisions we need to make. Her hugs just make me melt.
- Julie helped me with the kids in the morning so I could get a little sleep. Then she played "therapist" when I was freaking out on the phone.
- Kristie just plain listens to me. Sometimes that's all I need. Just to get it out.
- Chase gave me a hug and waved as he was taken to the ambulance in the gurney. What a heroic little man.
- Meredith provides me with all the entertainment I need to put a smile on my face. Psycho!
Dear Kristen, God is watching over you and Chase. I thank God for all the angels he has sent your way. Sweetie, I don't have the right words to help you. I am grieving with you, I know that. I wish I could tell you Chase will be fine tomorrow :( Your poor little guy is so, so sick - I am praying one of those docs can help him! Maybe them seeing that rage will help - I can only pray.
ReplyDeleteYou have so much to deal with... no wonder you can't sleep. I wish I could help you. I am so sorry - you should not have to go through this at all.
Much love to you...